Saturday, April 29, 2006

The Da Vinci Code

I read the Davinci code when it first came out. I thought the book was fascinating. I didn't consider myself a christian at that time. The intricate parts of the story was what I found interesting. The numbers things and Davinci. Yet even then, I didn't believe the parts about Christ and Magdalene.

Christ and Mary had a child? Either they were married or lovers?

No. No.

Even then without considering myself to be a Christian I didn't believe that myth. An aside; Holy Blood, Holy Grail has been debunked by its own writers. So all of this was for naught. This book, actually made me want to study the Bible and Christianity more. Christ. Who was he, and why did people follow him relentlessly? Mary, who was she and why did she stand by Him? Stay with Him to the end. Part of being a Christian is to ask. We can deepen our faith by questioning.

Everything we need to know about Christ is in the Bible. The relationship he had with Mary or any woman in his entourage/group. Was as teacher to student. Christ healed Mary of the demons at first. So at first he was like a therapist to her? Then she became an intricate part of his following. He was her teacher, mentor.

Any woman that has ever had a teacher or mentor come onto them, knows that uncomfortable feeling. That it is wrong. As a woman who has had this happen, it is very uncomfortable, and makes me think less of the man. Do you not see me?

I find it highly amusing that woman who are always complaining of being treated like sex objects over thinking rational human beings will fall into that myth whole-heartedly. Woman who are tired of sexual stereotypes, of being treated as if we are only placed on this planet to please a man. Woman who fight for status in the business world, or struggle with that glass ceiling. Will accept that lie.

As if by Mary being His lover or wife would raise her status within that group. She was his wife!! There is a need for humans to be some-thing!! The need for a title. Woman want the title Priest. Why? Because it means something. Yet as a christian isn't part of this to not need titles? To not need the worlds acceptance. To not need the world to place a title upon me. Status. This is what I am!!

We are not of this world...
Lose the need for status or some pedestal. Lose the need for human acceptance. I am not here to be accepted by the world.

Really think about it. In the Bible Christ says to even think of a married woman in a sexual way is adultery. We are called to respect ourselves, our bodies. The body is the temple. Christs body died and rose. So for Christ to look at Mary or any other woman in that way would denegrate her status in His following. Not enhance it. It is very dissapointing as a woman to be treated in that way by someone I respect. Someone I look up to. Ask the woman. Who is hit on or has had advances made upon her by someone she is trying to do business with or work with. Also, what therapist has relations with there patient? What teacher sleeps or consider sleeping with the student? It is wrong and harmfull.

Christ also had his Mother Mary. As a rubick on how to treat woman. Could we see Mary raising her son without that? Utter respect for woman, and what we are capable of. Mary is and always will be an incredible role model for woman. Get past the perpetual virginity. Christ had many followers who were not virgins. He chose to see past that. Accept us as we are. The guilt and shame we place upon ourselves for not being virginal is what we do. Not Christ. Because He see's our potential past that.

Love. Love is not sexual or physical. Love is an essence. Not a physical being. Get out of the valentines, buy my love mentality. Love is pure, simple. Stop wrapping it up in the package of actions. Christ said, love each other as I have loved you. His love for the women was not based on seeking gratification or satisfaction from them. As a matter of fact he sought very little from people. Accept me or not. I am here.

Many of the woman he encountered in the bible were not approached in that manner. Nor delt with in the way. He had a new way. Oftentimes usurping Moses law. Healing woman was what he did. He looked into woman and saw our true selves. Regardless of our sexual ways. That is why He is so amazing!! He took those that were supposedly ruined and brought them back up. Regardless of what we have done, we are worthy, wonderfull beings!! Christ says; "I am here for you."

The idea of having a child. Christ was in constant communion with God. Since he was a boy, scaring his mother by dissapearing for that time. To spend time in "his fathers house." So to have a child? No. No.

Because he knew his purpose was not to populate this world, but to enhance it. To begin this "new way." Like the Dalai lamma, to be celibate is an intricate part of his life. Christ was a teacher of many things. Celibacy is not a crime or wrong. People hear the word celibacy and think of suffering. How do you live without sex? Well, I would hazard to guess many people do. Even people that aren't religious. Married people practice a form of celibacy.

Priests and marriage. I was watching "God or the girl." At first unhappy with the title, because we have God. with or without a mate. But there is an intricacy often missed when looking at Priests or the religious. It is an acceptance of the great one. That my family is the body of Christ. Some are not called to populate, but to enhance. Be there. The wife is the church, or husband Christ. In this, they are fulfilled. Everytime we suggest marriage, in my humble opinion we are belittling there role or purpose. A commitment to humanity. A dedication to the Body of Christ. Which is pure and chaste.

Many people practice celibacy as a way of enhancing our spiritual lives. To give ourselve time, untethered by physical needs to delve deeper into ourselves. Souls/spirits. To gain a deeper understanding of why we do the things we do. Untethered by that need or desire. To seek answers to questions. To take time to just accept ourselves as human beings. Decipher the many facets of me. Sexuality is a part, but not my driving force, nor my purpose in life.

As a parent, it is important for me to be celibate. I haven't always been. For my child to see that I am a person, untethered by sexuality. I am worthy on my own. Respecting this body God gave to me. Walk the walk with Christ.

I want a man to think more of me then as some sexual toy. By focussing only on sex, all they are doing is seeking one aspect of my intricate being. One facet. When there is so much more to me. Read my words, here what I think. Accept me as a person. Seeking sexual satisfaction from each other goes against spiritual lessons. Because we should not seek satisfaction from each other. We should seek? Togetherness. The great one. I see in you, myself. I accept you as I accept myself. Love. Without physical sexuality getting involved. Love and sex do not coincide. Just because we share bodies doesn't mean we share spirit/soul. Oftentimes it is soul-less. Spirit-less. I am with you, but not really WITH you. How often have we/I felt that? How often have I felt lessor of a person for doing that. Cheated by the experience rather then being reinforced.

Can men and woman be friends? Yes. Without sexuality getting involved. To me its more pure, and simple. I should not look at every man I meet as a sexual object. Taking his body apart piece by piece. Seeing only one facet of him. Sizing him up. Or judging him as worthy or unworthy. That part of life is supposed to be sacred. Shared with someone after commitment is made. Ask the woman with children, like myself. No father around. Because the commitment, or knowledge of the man wasn't there to make that very important decision. I missed out on some very intricate parts of a relationship. I didn't give all of myself. Thus cheating that man I was with. Holding back. Hiding from him the most important parts of myself.

Sexuality and childbearing become weapons. We use or utilise to try and keep someone. Bind them to us. I have had your child so you must stay with me. I gave you my body, now you must stay with me. When we do not have the ropes to bind. That intricate sharing. Beneath the surface of everyday life. Because we only gave one small aspect of our whole selves. It is not enough too sustain a length of time, or a true commitment. We confuse sex with love. Seeking love through sex. When oftentimes love has nothing to do with sex. Love comes first. Without sex. Listen to the sisters that made that mistake. How they/I payed for it. How very wrong that is.

Even seeking acceptance through men. I should accept myself without a man. We use men as status symbols or reasons for living. When my reason for life is not a man. We use them to harm each other, we steal them from each other. We fight over them, we use them. Woman do this to harm other woman. One woman will use a man to harm another woman. To belittle her, or make her feel unworthy. We can't respect commitment. We use men in terrible ways. Thus belittling there place/purpose, as well as our own. This is a lack of honor and dignity. Christ wants us to walk in honor and be dignified. Woman should be working together, accepting each other.

We suffer because of those actions, our children suffer. Children grow up feeling they never had a father or mother and seek them. Woman or men struggle too financially support. Thus losing valuable time with our kids. Children become more of a burden then a blessing. Children are discarded and abused. Used as tools to harm the other parent.

Would Christ father a child knowing he would not be there? {There is a debate on whether or not Christ knew what all would happen. I choose his knowing.} Also knowing his children would be hunted. Found and killed. The christians hid after Christs passion for a valid reason. Would he put his own children in his place? To be sacrificed for the cause. No. No.

When we are trying to understand our human purpose on this planet. Sexual gratification is not even considered. Spiritually there is alot more to life. A Purpose Driven Life, doesn't have a section on sexuality? {correct me if I am wrong} Is my place to be some sexual being 24/7? No. It's about delving deeper. Sharing more of ourselves. Getting beneath the face we create to be in this world. That mask we wear. Getting past the title or the name. Allowing people into our hidden rooms. Like the "interior castle." Allowing someone entrance into our selves/beings. Open to them. Nothing is hidden. The boundaries are not sexual ones. Oftentimes sexual problems or promiscuity has nothing to do with sex itself. It is a reaction to something else. It has a deeper meaning. The original thought behind the thought. The original problem covered by these actions. An utter lack of acceptance of me as an individual, a person. Lack of self esteem, self worth. This we cannot get from another human, only from within can we gain it.

To accept more of me. Becoming and accepting me. All of me. Utilising the gifts God gave me to be an intricate part of this world. A positive part.

Thefore my conclusion is that Christ respected Mary far more then we give her credit for. She so believed in Him that she followed Him to the end. What an amazing concept. Too follow through to the end, whatever that end may be. We woman have that within ourselves. Loyalty. Faith. Commitment!! Grace, dignity, honor. Yes!! We are strong and powerfull beings!! We have alot to give! There is alot to do!!! Through Christ, trusting in Him, we can do anything!!

God Bless~~

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Projects

List of projects for myself/ Illinois Soldiers Angels ;

1) Iraq childrens school supplies drive. Donations are being accepted through myself and Winston Campus. Donations accepted for postage are needed. The cost of shipping the school items. A tax letter can be given.

2) A troop deploying in the next month. Goodies bags for 75 deploying Soldiers. Ideas for what should be in the bags are welcome. Donations accepted through myself and my DS at SA.

3) Chaplains support. Donations accepted through myself. Religious materials and items accepted. Letters of support.

4) School talk; The Life of a Soldier. Calls placed to high schools in the area to see if they would be interested in having us come in to talk about a Soldiers Life.

5) Patriot Guard riders. Supporting them in there endeavers. Attending funerals.

6) Summer carepackages going out. These include cooling scarfs and items for summer. Suntan lotion, etc.

For any donation tax receipts are given.

God Bless Our Troops!!

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Seeing ourselves in others..

I had an experience when I was sick. I had gone to the doctor. As I was driving back out to the suburbs, I stopped for gas.

A woman approached me. Something had gone wrong, she needed change to use a payphone. She elaborated and told me some of her situation. So I gave her some quarters.

While I was pumping the gas, I thought about her. But for the grace of God, there I am. Been there done that. How often in my life was I stranded? Sometimes in completely different states. No money. No home to call, or go to. There I was, looking back at the situations I had placed myself in. Harmfull and dangerous situations.

There have been many people in my life that attempted to lift me up. To help. Whether I accepted it? Took time. Time and the acceptance of Gods love.

I had 20$ in my purse. So I went in and bought a bottle of water for the change. As I was getting my change she walked in. I handed 10 over to her. She was very greatfull. Could she get my address and send me the money? She wanted to pay me back.

I felt compelled to tell her Christ says we should care for each other. God Loves her and God Bless her. God Bless You!! That was all I said to her.

For myself I thought;
There really is no need to pay me back. I have already received. So much!!!

Self esteem, self respect, accepting I am worthy.
Love
Peace
Forgiveness
Through Christ I can have these things, and so much more!!!

This Grace is for everyone. Not just I. Each of us is on our own path. Accepting God and Christ I believe is the line seperating that time from now for me. It will always be there. Yet through the Grace of God, here I am.

God Bless~~

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

People really want to help out~~

Within one hour of sending an email to my childs teacher about a Soldier overseas wanting school supplies for the kids there. My daughters teacher called me!!

There community service group is going to pick this up. They are also thinking of having a contest to see which homeroom can bring in the most supplies!! Very Cool!!!

It just goes to show, that people really want to help, do something towards the efforts overseas!

God Bless~~

Friday, April 07, 2006

Did Judas betray Christ?

Yes!!

Watching some Christian from some panel of Christians espousing the “fact” that Jesus asked Judas to betray him. Gnostics are a different breed. Typical humans trying to talk our way out of something.


Whenever some question about Christ's life or ways arises I think this;
Why don’t you ask Christ?


How is it christians can make there way through life without talking to Christ? The whole da vinci debacle. Read the bible. It’s all there. Any answer to any question is there. I read the bible, not as a text of what happened thousands of years ago. But as the living word that it is. This is happening now. Same situations, same people. Only different names.


To betray is the human condition. I betray myself. Sometimes, in the lowest of forms. So how could I have not betrayed Jesus? When watching the Passion it kept coming to me; “This could have gone a different way. This didn’t have to happen like it did.”


In some ways I think God relied on us, his children to help our brother. We did not. Some did some didn’t.


Would Christ ask us to do something wrong to serve him? Betrayel is wrong. He would never ask me to betray, in order to serve. As a matter of fact; He requests me not to betray. Don’t betray myself, thus betraying him.


At times like this, I am brought back to something that happened many years ago. A woman was sitting on a bridge. Traffic was at a complete stop. A man, completely irate with her came up to her car, somehow managed to pull her out, and was beating her. Calling her names. Many people sat around them in there vehicles. The woman ran. Trying to get away, screaming for help. Eventually to get away from her attacker she chose death. Jumped from the bridge. While numerous people sat by and watched.


This woman is Christ. Beaten and abused. Do we get out of our cars and help her/him? Or listen to the numerous reasons why I shouldn’t help her. My daughter would probably be with me. I could be the one beaten to death. Why should I risk my life to save her? Perhaps even risk my daughters, by turning that maniacs attentions onto me. So I choose to betray humanity and the value of compassion to sit back and witness.


As human beings we witness much. To do something would remove us/me from my cooshy life, perhaps put me in danger, or I would have to give something. Materialistic or otherwise.
Yet Christ did give His life for me. No question. He continues to do it to this day. Through these people. We have opportunities to change what happened previously. Not to rewrite Christ’s story, but to enhance it and make it better. This should have never have happened. Yet I cannot be willing to enable that enhancement until I accept the fact that I betray. In doing so enable myself with Christ’s help, to change or hinder the need or compulsion to do so.


Now is the time to accept those betrayels, embrace them and hand them to Christ. He is waiting for them, as He always does. This is actually the best time for these people to come out with this. Because it gives some/everyone the opportunity to ask Christ. Really see if our faith is pure and honest. Will this rock my faith? Will I give up on Christ? Do I lack faith enough to believe this?

No. Ask Christ, He will answer. Talk to Christ. He will answer.

God Bless us all!!

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Pray for the Chocolate Bunnies!!

Time has flown by!!! Already April, a Soldiers Angel has to start looking at the weather over there. I do anyways, yet I saw on another blog it was 75 in bagdhad. ACH!!!

I know there is a cut-off date for sending chocolate. Things that melt in extreme heat. Figure it is 75, but probably 10 or 20 degrees hotter where they store the mail. Until it is delivered.

Yet it seemed important to send the bunnies. What is Easter without the chocolate bunny? Then there were the marshmellow eggs drenched in chocolate. I hope I have enough time. Time for it to get there intact. Not some melted mess!!! I thought I was sending it too early monday. Now I wish I had sent them last week.

Please say a prayer for all the bunnies hopping there way overseas, and the soldier receiving them!!!

God Bless our Armed Forces!!!

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Blog of the Month

Afghanidan is an interesting blogger. The name tells all. Interesting stories about Afghanistan plus pictures!!!

Go check Him out!!

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Good News!!!

The U.S.Government announced we will not be invading Venezuela anytime soon....

No matter how much Chavez wants us too!!

It doesn't matter who you are~~

A variety of news channels had spots about the "scuffle" between Rep. Cynthia McKinney and a Guard in washington. She even appeared on Cnn.

Racial Profiling. She mentioned it was Racial profiling, that caused this guard to stop her from entering a House office building on capital hill.

As a matter of fact, throughout the interview, she named a variety of excuses;

She wasn't wearing her pin. This is a special pin worn by members of congress and representatives.

She changed her hairstyle- actually this was someone else trying to figure why this guard didn't recognise her.

She was in a hurry, trying to get work done for her constituents.

Yet, in my humble opinion. There is no excuse for hitting a guard. No excuse for not following the protocals set up to try and insure the safety of those who reside within that building. They should have to go through metal detectors just like anyone else. If this is racial profiling, which I seriously doubt. Then what should the response be? Anyone?

Be respectfull. Be courteous. Why lower ones-self?

I am a white lower middle class woman. Yet, when a guard tells me to stop, I stop. When I am stopped by the police, I am courteous and answer his or her questions. I need a badge to enter my secure workplace so I wear it. Or have to go to the security guard. She is no different.

All this woman has done is show us all;
"If you can't respect people doing there jobs" make up an excuse for her own bad behaviors.
There is no excuse!!

Monday, April 03, 2006

Be Aware Of Duty, Higher Awareness.com

"To serve is beautiful, but only if it is done with joy and a
whole heart."
-- Pearl S. Buck

Many of us have been taught to do our duty. What does this imply
to you? For me, ‘doing my duty’ means doing something I really
don’t want to do. My heart’s not in it, and so the energy for the
act isn’t there. I have to force every move. Usually, there’s
underlying resentment. When this is the scenario, tasks may get
done but there’s no gift to the world.

We do not truly serve the world if we give to others but neglect
our own truth and our own needs. We need to give to ourselves as
we give to others. IT’S NOT SELFISH TO LOOK AFTER OURSELVES --
IT’S ESSENTIAL!

"Forget the resolutions. Forget control and discipline...too much
work. Instead try experimenting. Go in search of something to
fall in love with...something about yourself, your career, your
spouse."
-- Dale Dauten

"Nothing truly valuable arises from ambition or from a mere sense
of duty; it stems rather from love and devotion towards men and
towards objective things."
-- Albert Einstein

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